About Me
So what can I offer ?
Right now, someone to talk to, healing if that’s what I am directed to do and lots of encouragement.
. . .Isn’t change a great thing ?
.I can’t say that I had a terribly exciting childhood, I am an only child from a loving family and never experienced anything particularly shocking in my early years. I took it for granted that everyone talked to the trees, felt the changes in atmosphere in different places, talked to the animals and so on. It came as rather a shock to find myself ridiculed for such beliefs.
Born in Malta in 63 we soon moved back to the UK where by the 70’s I found myself living on the top of the Pennines in a remote part of Northern England. A strongly Methodist area, I was encouraged to attend Sunday school and there started my first religious connection. By the time I was 16 I was swept along with the born again Christian movement in the area and found myself training to become a lay preacher in the Methodist ministry. I can’t really put my finger on precisely what it was that stopped me but something didn’t fit. In my mid teens I went through a deep depression and I looked to the church with deeper intent to find solace. I found images of the Tarot to be exotic and compelling, I didn’t understand them but I wanted to and they made my heart dance to look at them. The rich symbolism, the hidden meanings all came together to arouse my curiosity in all things spiritual. When this became known to my Sunday school teacher, I was told in no uncertain terms to leave ‘the Devil’s work’ alone. So this all became very confusing and I questioned my sense of self - how could I be a good Christian if my whole being yearned after bad things? It would take another 30 years before I realised I wasn’t wrong or bad.
I couldn’t justify what I was being taught and was supposed to believe with what I knew deep inside. I also found that I couldn’t be a hypocrite in that way and so my slide away from all organised religion began and for many years I considered myself agnostic.
It would take a health crisis in my 30’s (possibly Glandular fever that left me debilitated for over 6 years) and a breakdown in my early 40’s to finally bring me back to balance and though that time around my 40th birthday was incredibly difficult, it did provide the invitation to explore other worlds. For a few years before my 40th birthday I had increasing difficulty asserting myself, I felt tired all the time, disconnected, unable to focus on life or feel part of the world. I had self confidence problems, stress levels through the roof and a poor self image .
Who have I learned from?
Primarily the spirits who work with me have who have shown me so much but I have, of course, learned from many different practitioners. Some I have worked with over many months or years, others just a workshop here and there.
Jane Shutt (Author of ‘The Spirits are Always With Me’) and Christine Mark.
Mi-Shell Jessen (Bearpaw Jewelry).
Karen Kelly and Shenoa Taylor
John-Luke Edwards
Mia Dolan (of Haunted Homes fame)
Joe Potter (Reiki)
And everyone I have ever met.
As well as corresponding and sharing experiences with many, many others.
I hold a BA (hons) in Fine Art and certificate in Counselling Concepts.
Lets start before the beginning . . . .
Where do we trace our first spiritual rumblings back to? Can I remember a time when I didn’t believe that everything had a spirit? The literal answer to these questions eludes me because it seems to extend way back before I was born. However, in the here and now lifetime I can honestly say that there has never been a time in my life when I didn’t feel the life or spirit in all things.
Children, of course, know this instinctively as they talk to their toys, to trees, to their invisible friends and even to a pebble from the beach. Then, over time, as we grow up, we are taught to dismiss these ideas as childish fantasy and so we have to re-learn what should be natural.
I had gone from being a happy, confident child to a self-doubting and introverted adult and even though there were good times over the years, I married a wonderful man and have two superb boys still something was missing. Finally, after the crisis, after I hit rock bottom, I turned again to Tarot, learned the truth, used it as a tool for self dev elopement and quickly started to look further into different belief systems around the world. I joined an online Tarot Community (Aeclectic Tarot Forum) where the Spirituality and Divination sections particularly sparked my inspiration and the friends I made there helped my search and consequently my healing. This warm, friendly place nurtured the fragile, fledgling butterfly of a self. With encouragement and a sense of place I continued my search for something . . . . but what?
All through this time I started to see things in meditation, had encounters with strange, vibrant coloured entities and was so confused I didn’t know what it all meant or where I was supposed to go next. Something amazing was happening but I didn’t know what to do.
One day a friend sent me a book ‘Shaman, Healer, Sage’ by Alberto Viloldo and it changed my way of thinking. So much of what I read felt right and it was like reading the truth for the first time. Immediately I researched this ‘Shaman stuff’, bought books, read like crazy and found my spirit soared. From there it has been my daily joy to thank the Universe for bringing me back to animism, the oldest and one of the most truly loving of spiritual ways.
Learning to trust my instincts, develop basic mediumship skills, healing skills and become open to both the inner and outer worlds has been and still is, an amazing experience. Each day brings me closer to my guides and teachers, each day has a new message or offers a new lesson and it has made my life whole. It’s this very wholeness that I would dearly love to facilitate in others who are searching along similar paths.
I’ve done some real soul-searching along the way. Who am I to think I can do this? Why would the spirits want to work with a non-1st nation westerner? How can I be a shamanic practitioner unless I leave everything behind and go live with and learn from a 1st nation shaman somewhere? All these questions arose and finally the answer, for me, is that people are people all over the world and our ancestors are there for us, regardless of whether we know that or not. Every one of us alive today has a 1st nation ancestor somewhere in their distant past - we all come from the same genetic pool in Africa if you want to take it that far back. But although we may have forgotten our heritage, our ancestors certainly haven’t forgotten us and we can still learn to connect to the Universe and learn from our Ancestors if we are prompted to do so. If this sounds familiar then please don’t give up, keep going.
My own ancestry leads back to Scotland and Western Europe.
I’m just your normal, run of the mill, western woman who struggled to find her place in a world divorced from nature. But I am, like you, a child of this Universe.
My name is Jules Farrer. Please drop me a line, I love to hear from people.